haunted ;
"and to you, ____, i have nothing nice to say. i don't want to spite you here, its not fair to you. but yes you've just screwed me over again. you don't get it do you? i'm living in the shadows of your memory, and it hurts big time. leave me alone, and i'm serious. the only reason why i bothered to waste time talking in circles is to shield you from more pain, but apparently you like it don't you? or i guess you wouldn't hve called me for your serious talk. to me it had ended when i said so, right there at the competition period. now that you dont take me seriously, i have to live through it twice over. no no don't talk about how i should get on with my life. just leave me alone. i don't want to think about it. i don't want to think about you. if you finally got my point anyway, its just too late. i'm not going to take no more shit. i hate angsting, i hate punching walls and shit, but i relived it again today. i may be weak-minded, but no i will not give a shit anymore. leave me alone. leave me alone. leave me alone. leave me alone."
does it realli hafta be like tt? do u realli hate me tt much? im shattered. it alwayz turns out like tt. even when we talk nicely, u will juz turn the tables n treat it like hell. ok mayb to u it was. again ure pushing me to the edge. i will definitely leave u alone. u have my word.
slping at 4am n crying for the whole day n gonna be the whole nite isnt realli a gd thing. my eyes hurt.
thanks to ben n zhixiong.. yeah thanks for being there.
ok im not in the mood anymore. i feel like shit. u will say i give u shit n i will say u give me shit. so wdv. im screwed up n i screw things up. im gonna cry summore. realli.
time;8:30 PM